I have sucked big time this week. I haven’t eaten clean much at all…in fact other than the lettuce on my hamburger last night I didn’t have any vegetables at all yesterday. I’ve worked out a few times but I haven’t kept to my running training plan. I’ve just been very “off.” A few weeks ago I got the bright idea to take myself off of my meds for my seasonal affective disorder and that backfired big time. I’m back on one of them and I’ve been trying to wean myself off and it isn’t going so well. I don’t want to be on them but coming off of them has been difficult. And then sometimes I think, “Well, maybe I need them year round.”
I know that sometimes I sound like a broken record. Trust me, I’m as tired writing about it as you are reading about it. I commit to stay on track and then I gain a pound that week. It’s very frustrating and I have no one to blame for it but myself. I don’t know if it’s lack of motivation, lack of willpower or what. I don’t know why I get so close to my goals and then I just stop. Is it because I’m scared? Scared of failure? Scared of success? I don’t know. Maybe one day I’ll get myself all figured out!
I’m a couple days late but I’m linking up with Jill
this week for Manic Monday. As far as being accountable, well, I’m embarrassed to say my weight was up to 196. Seriously?! How the heck have I allowed myself to get back up that close to 200? I don’t ever want to see 200 anything on the scale again. My summer clothes are tight (I tried on my skirts and shorts the other day and I wanted to cry) and I’m just miserable. Hopefully I can turn that frustration into success.
This is going to be a sucky meal plan because I haven’t even had time to think it through! We adopted a new pup from the shelter this week and he’s taken up a good deal of our time! He’s a chihuahua pug (we think!) mix and he is sweet as he can be. I’ll post photos soon!
Tuesday: Hamburger, pasta salad, corn on the cob (Small Group night)
Wednesday: Chicken something (I’ll be digging through the cabinet for ideas)
Thursday: Taco Bar/Burrito Bowls
Friday: Pork roast, brussels sprouts, rice
Saturday: Something easy (hamburgers again?) because we have a race that night!
Tuesday: Personal training session (total body workout)
Wednesday: Walk with girls x 1 hour, arm workout at home
Thurdsay: Total Body Conditioning at the gym
Saturday: 5K Glow Race with the family
Here’s to a great (rest of) the week!